Hits and Misses

In life, there would always be failures no matter how hard you try to avoid them. The only thing you can do is to lessen the suffering, endure the pain and shorten the agony.I wish it could be that easy.

In the next few days, I will file a leave of absense for an undefined period of time.

I am on a roll, so to speak, but my roll is more appropriately "tumbling down on a steep rugged hill" that has caused me too many emotional cuts and bruises.

All I wanted is another chance of having a family, but I guess I tried too hard that I happened to blew it in the process.

Sometimes, that's life (and relationships). Its like in many ways, trying to hold on to a bird. Grip too hard, and its dead. Grip too soft, then it will fly away.

I am so embarassed to admit that I am already 34 but still no idea how to get that "right" grip. Some people never learn, and perhaps I am one of those who just too hard headed to learn.

Is it I am with the wrong person? Wrong decisions? Or wrong me?

Perhaps Katrina Halili might be thinking the same way. She was said to be so much inlove with Dr. Kho but now Dr. Kho told everybody that Katrina was actually her drug dealer. Duh?!

But then again, that's another story.

I will be back, that's for sure. Hopefully, I will come out stronger and wiser.

For I cannot give up life. Life is all about the challenges, the pain and the sorrow, and the triumps and failures over those challenges. You cannot win it all, but you have to win at least most of it.

Badly bruised and all, life still and always goes on.