Did I anticipated it too much that it came to happen or it was really bound to happen and I can't do anything about it but to wait in vain?!
Yes, it happened. She said that she has to leave me (again) with no definite reason. She said that there are people who doesn't want her to be happy and she can't do anything about it.
What about love? I guess love is just a word... an overrated one.
But then, didn't I wrote on my previous blog post that I am still on the "wait and see" mode?! Does this mean that I am not hurt?!
Unfortunately, I am still very much hurting right now. After all the preparations for this moment (as I saw it happening), here I am again bewildered and lost. I guess there is no preparation enough for this kind of hurting.
The good things is "Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional." For now, I'll enjoy the pain... but tomorrow... or the next days to come, I know I'll suddenly become numb, either of too much pain or the will to feel nothing, I'll go numb.
This time, how I wish that when I go numb... it would cripple my badly battered heart forever.
1 comment:
Crystal-clear, she doesn't deserve you!
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