Let the Pain Remain...

There are just some songs that will forever stay in me, coz it will always reflect my true feelings... like this one by the Side A (or is it Ella May Saison who did the original?)

LET THE PAIN REMAIN

love comes, love goes,
but a sudden feeling never lets me be
somehow, i know,
quite a part of me isn't changed since you've been gone
like a sturdy tree thats seen a thousand seasons
i've to shed my leaves in winter
and grow them back in spring
to welcome life again
to welcome you

so goes, my life
still beleive in dreams of having you around
too bad, memories feed the mind and not the heart
where i want you to be,
so i ask myself what you've left behind for me
to go on each day and live as if
i have you once again
what else is there that's real
but all the pain that i feel,

chorus:
so let the pain remain
forever in my heart
for every throb it brings is one more moment
spent with you,
i let the pain, bring on the rain
if that's the only way
if there's no other way
to be with you again

too bad memories, feed the mind and not the heart
where i want you to be
so i ask myself what you've left behind for me
to go on each day
and live as if i have you once again
what else is there that's real
but all the pain that i feel

Life's a Joke

By The Speaks (the same Pinoy band who sang High)

Clouds around today
Inside im loosing
I think its funny
But its not amusing

Its just a little thing
That im abusing
Well i play for sanity
But im not gonna loose it

Your intuition me
Well im gonna loose you
You give me sympathy
But i'll never use it

Its just a little thing
That im abusing
Welli play for sanity
But now im gonna loose it

Thinking about the days when i was young
Life was looking fading
I didnt comment when all you think is life's a joke
Feeling you didnt when know your worth is gone
Things am looking cheated
I didnt comment when all you think is life's a joke
Is lifes a joke

Your intuition me
Well im gonna loose you
You give me sympathy
But i'll never use it

Its just a little thing
That im abusing
Well i play for sanity
But im not gonna loose it

Thinking about the days when i was young
Life was looking fading
I didnt comment when all you think is life's a joke
Feeling you didnt when know your worth is gone
Things am looking cheated
I didnt comment when all you think is life's a joke

Thinking about the days when i was young
Life was looking fading
I didnt comment when all you think is life's a joke
Feeling you didnt when know your worth is gone
Things am looking cheated
I didnt comment when all you think
Is lifes a joke
Lifes a joke
Lifes a joke

Disillusioned...

There was a time that I pity people who are dissillusioned by the words "love" and "forever".

That was the time I would ask them to reconsider their belief and that life is beautiful... that love and forever does have a space in this world.

Not anymore.

Recently, I learned that the woman I loved so much... who did said that she loved me so much... is already dating someone else. Should I be happy for her?! Damn, kaplastikan ata un. I do still love her.... so if she wants to be happy, then so be it. Don't say that hey we can still be friends di ba?

I mean, where is the "love" and the "forever" that we were talking then? Andali ata nya akong naipagpalit... and she is even asking me to be her friend daw.

(I'm sorry, you go move on... I'm still stuck, but I won't stop you coz its your choice to leave me.)

I guess PipingSaksi was right, "forever" is only till you want to make it happen.

How about love? Its the biggest joke ever.

Or relationships?! Relationships is for someone who is looking for someone better to come...

Yes, count me in... I am already disillusioned. So much for "love", "forever" and "relationships".

Don't give me that look.

Just got out... again.

Wala na ba akong ibang alam kundi tumakas?!

Pag ayaw ko na.. tigil na. Wala na.

Tulad na lang nung isang organisasyon na feeling ko eh ginagamit lang kami...

At dahil ayaw ko, umalis ako. Tama ba yun, o di kaya dapat eh ginawa ko ang aking magagawa para mabago ang sitwasyon.

Hay, nagbabago na ata ako... Asan na ba ang Dave na kilala ko?