Hindi ba nauubos ang luha?!
Sometimes I just wonder as I spent 1/4 of my life crying, won't my tears ever dry up?!
Although I have resigned to the fact that I am bond to get hurt coz its part of life and love, I just wish that I won't ever cry again. Its ok for me to get hurt but I just don't wanna cry anymore...
Sana maubos na luha ko...
Monday, May 29, 2006
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Another pic, brown as I can be!
Sleepy, unshaved and untidy me!!! I've been really stressed out the past few days, I guess. :)
Friday, May 19, 2006
Of trees and hearts...
When was the last time you heard a very good movie line from a Pinoy movie?! Oh well, I still haven't watch it but Clair and her friends were talking about it...
“Oo inaamin ko, sila ay mga yakal, lawaan, apitong, at narra at kami ay saging lang pero maghanap kayo ng puno sa buong Pilipinas saging lang ang may puso…”
- Mark Lapid, from the movie “Apoy sa Dibdib ng Samar”
Neat.
“Oo inaamin ko, sila ay mga yakal, lawaan, apitong, at narra at kami ay saging lang pero maghanap kayo ng puno sa buong Pilipinas saging lang ang may puso…”
- Mark Lapid, from the movie “Apoy sa Dibdib ng Samar”
Neat.
F@cked up!
I am so fu@cked right now. I am furious.
I am so hurt and I am falling apart...
Something really bad happened to my so-called lovelife... and for her protection even though I was really hurt by what she did... I just can't blog about what she did.
All I can blog about is I am so f@cking hurt right now!!! Do you know the feeling you can't talk to anyone coz as I try to say something I just burst out and cry...
I can't even make myself hate her coz I still love her so much despite of everything...
But you know what?! All I can say to her is... it is all my fault (even its not) and I wish you happiness. I am so lame!
And then my bestfriend is also having this really BIG problem. I hope she'll be fine coz I myself can't stand seeing her hurt like that.
My gosh, this is going to be a very loooong day for me... I hope I still have the strength to make it through.
I am so hurt and I am falling apart...
Something really bad happened to my so-called lovelife... and for her protection even though I was really hurt by what she did... I just can't blog about what she did.
All I can blog about is I am so f@cking hurt right now!!! Do you know the feeling you can't talk to anyone coz as I try to say something I just burst out and cry...
I can't even make myself hate her coz I still love her so much despite of everything...
But you know what?! All I can say to her is... it is all my fault (even its not) and I wish you happiness. I am so lame!
And then my bestfriend is also having this really BIG problem. I hope she'll be fine coz I myself can't stand seeing her hurt like that.
My gosh, this is going to be a very loooong day for me... I hope I still have the strength to make it through.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Bye friend...
Bye friend... it has been nice. (Of course nice is an understatement.)
I wish you happiness especially with your future lawyer hubby... whoever that gonna be?!
Thank you.
Thank you.
Monday, May 15, 2006
Guess what?! People online!
Everyday is new day where you get to meet a lot of people even online... some are good... some are so good... while some are awfully bad.
I met this sweet girl at the forum... admittedly, we had something nice going on for the two us but it didn't worked out or reasons we both know, reasons that the only two of us should know.
But guess what? She spilled the beans (after the breakup if you could ever call it one) all over the forum and her friends passed their judgement against me without even asking my side of the story.
Oh well, she must be very happy right now the way she made me look like the villain while her friends look at her as the poor victim. (Update 15May2006: me and her friend has already cleared matters and I hope everything ends there...)
Also, I met a girl at the same forum... who at first seems to be intimidating because of her great looks and deep thoughts and ideas in her posts. Guess what again?! She turns out to be one of the coolest person you'll get to meet online! Now we are bestfriends and I enjoy being her cool dude... she calls me porcs (for porcupine, there's a story behind this), and I call her babyfats (no explanation needed, huh?!).
Dear babyfats: just don't be too trusting, will you?!
Not so long time ago, I also met a lady through our local website... we started as friends and then become sweet lovers. Guess what? I am still very much inlove with her after all these past months to think that we haven't really met each other in person and after all the circumstances that happened between us. I am not sure if she stills love me now, but nonetheless I'm still happy to love her unconditionally.
IMHO, the online world is much like the real world... you just have to be yourself to meet true people. At the same time, you should also be not too trusting no matter how she or he looks like for you'll never know the sucker in them.
I met this sweet girl at the forum... admittedly, we had something nice going on for the two us but it didn't worked out or reasons we both know, reasons that the only two of us should know.
But guess what? She spilled the beans (after the breakup if you could ever call it one) all over the forum and her friends passed their judgement against me without even asking my side of the story.
Oh well, she must be very happy right now the way she made me look like the villain while her friends look at her as the poor victim. (Update 15May2006: me and her friend has already cleared matters and I hope everything ends there...)
Also, I met a girl at the same forum... who at first seems to be intimidating because of her great looks and deep thoughts and ideas in her posts. Guess what again?! She turns out to be one of the coolest person you'll get to meet online! Now we are bestfriends and I enjoy being her cool dude... she calls me porcs (for porcupine, there's a story behind this), and I call her babyfats (no explanation needed, huh?!).
Dear babyfats: just don't be too trusting, will you?!
Not so long time ago, I also met a lady through our local website... we started as friends and then become sweet lovers. Guess what? I am still very much inlove with her after all these past months to think that we haven't really met each other in person and after all the circumstances that happened between us. I am not sure if she stills love me now, but nonetheless I'm still happy to love her unconditionally.
IMHO, the online world is much like the real world... you just have to be yourself to meet true people. At the same time, you should also be not too trusting no matter how she or he looks like for you'll never know the sucker in them.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
I love you because...
I posted the following on a forum thread at Kuro.ph that has the title "I love you because..."
Hay baliw talaga ako kapag umibig noh?!
I love you... for no reason at all coz love itself is the reason.
If I love you because you love me... what if you don't love me anymore?
If I love you because you're beautiful, what if you already turned old and ugly?
If I love you because you're nice, what if you suddenly turned grumpy?!
I will love you even if there will be no more reason to love.... coz love knows no reason at all.
Hay baliw talaga ako kapag umibig noh?!
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
She loves me, she loves me not....
I remember when I was in high school, whenever I have doubts that some girl that I'm courting would like me or not... I go pick a flower and do the "She loves me, she loves me not" thing.
Somehow, when it ends up with "she loves me" it makes me feel better and when I know that it would result in a "she loves me not"... I do sometimes cheat, I just pick half of the petal and so voila, "she loves me" still!
Most people when they have doubts, they always turn to FATE so that when things go wrong they can blame FATE and not themselves. Most people by nature tend to be afraid of failure that in the process of placing the results of what they do on fate... they never reach their full potential and never knew how far could they have reached if they did their best. I pity them.
Same as in falling in love...
Sometimes as we fear of losing the one we love, we tend to hold back and say "Bahala na kung magtatagal kami or hinde". What happens? My ex used to say, "You attract what you fear". The more you think of something will happen (e.g. a breakup!), chances are great that it will happen.
Well at the age of 30, I know better. I've been hurt before and badly bruised by falling in love so deep, but hey here I am still loving this someone as if I was never hurt before... as if she was not the one who hurt me.... as if I don't know that she already love somebody else.
Yes, this is my choice. To love in pain.. yeah its stupid, I know that. But this is my choice, not someone else's choice... not even a flower's petal choice. My choice, my life, my love.
For me, the best way to love is to love like you haven't hurt before... Go for your choice and do it with pride. Don't worry about pain coz you'll soon get to stand up anyway. Worry about love that could slip from your grip because of self-doubt and faith in fate.
So next time kid, instead of picking up a flower and do a "She loves me, she loves me not"... go pickup a bunch of flowers and give it to the one you love.... who knows, it might be the one thing she has been waiting all her life.
Stay happy!
Somehow, when it ends up with "she loves me" it makes me feel better and when I know that it would result in a "she loves me not"... I do sometimes cheat, I just pick half of the petal and so voila, "she loves me" still!
Most people when they have doubts, they always turn to FATE so that when things go wrong they can blame FATE and not themselves. Most people by nature tend to be afraid of failure that in the process of placing the results of what they do on fate... they never reach their full potential and never knew how far could they have reached if they did their best. I pity them.
Same as in falling in love...
Sometimes as we fear of losing the one we love, we tend to hold back and say "Bahala na kung magtatagal kami or hinde". What happens? My ex used to say, "You attract what you fear". The more you think of something will happen (e.g. a breakup!), chances are great that it will happen.
Well at the age of 30, I know better. I've been hurt before and badly bruised by falling in love so deep, but hey here I am still loving this someone as if I was never hurt before... as if she was not the one who hurt me.... as if I don't know that she already love somebody else.
Yes, this is my choice. To love in pain.. yeah its stupid, I know that. But this is my choice, not someone else's choice... not even a flower's petal choice. My choice, my life, my love.
For me, the best way to love is to love like you haven't hurt before... Go for your choice and do it with pride. Don't worry about pain coz you'll soon get to stand up anyway. Worry about love that could slip from your grip because of self-doubt and faith in fate.
So next time kid, instead of picking up a flower and do a "She loves me, she loves me not"... go pickup a bunch of flowers and give it to the one you love.... who knows, it might be the one thing she has been waiting all her life.
Stay happy!
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